-=Aaron=-

I moved my blogging elsewhere, because not only is this blog inactive, but its also emo as @$%&. hahaha.

You can find my new blog here

It offers a lot of good stuff, aside from my general life. I hope it gets bigger in the future; I'll make it happen.

I used to look up to Kenshin Himura, in my younger days, not because he was a cool guy with a sword, but the values he carried with him. I then realized that most of the Samurai during that time had nearly the same amount of values that the animated character had. I then looked up to a greater man Ieyasu Tokugawa, a real figure and am important one during the Edo period of Japan. Not everything Ieyasu did was great, but the majority of his decisions, acts, and his personality I look up too even today. People often wonder why I am so "nice" or act with such compassion, even though I can be pretty mean on a bad day (not everyone is perfect!). The reason I act that way is events from the days of middle school to the present has molded me into the person I am. Having that historical figure to look up too has also helped greatly, in everything I do. I also decided to train myself with a sword as well for various reasons. I've been teaching myself the proper way through some videos and books since the closest dojo is in SF. I really started getting serious just this year, I have been getting really good at the basic strike or "Men" , and now have moved myself on to the "Kote-do" but still practice the basic strike daily as well as other basic workouts. Not many people knew, others did; now everyone should know. The training has improved many sides of me that were very weak and still in development, like my courage, physical strength, and even my mind. I hope I can one day get training from a real sensei, someday soon I hope; I feel like I'm disgracing all who follow the discipline especially with my Shinai (bamboo training sword) in such a horrid shape.

    So I'm a big fan of driving the mountain roads (touge) around here; its a fun hobby, but no really the wisest. Last night I was smart enough to visit a road over by Berekly, as soon as we started the run I was pulled over for a little speeding, I had no paper work on me at all. In most cases you would lose your car, and since my family has no money to rescue it from impound it would be gone forever. But I feel God gave me a huge break last night, In order to show me that this isnt the right way to go. I've been in near accidents driving these type of road before, and I said to myself God trying to tell me something, but I kept doing it anyway. I see that if I keep doing this form of street racing. I could end up dead, or have no car, or seriously injured. I would rather spend a 100 dollars on a day on the track then gamble with the above listed.

  So thats that, I'm retired from "touge" I might go out for a run here and there, but as for my whole plan that I had, its in the trash. I'm just being smart about my life thats all.

  So I'm not that pissed about work anymore, it tends to be and off and on type thing with me, usually due to a string of bad days followed by a good one.

  Christmas is looking pretty lean, we don't even have a tree up or decorations yet, I think its going to be a lot different this year; I hope my little brother can adjust to the difference. Its not like you need fancy lights and decorations or even gifts anyway, I’m sure we all know that by know anyway.

  Today I’ll finally be registering for school, after trying DVC then Heald, I finally compromised with my parents. I’ll have to pay for all the expenses so I hope I can save enough money to pay for everything. I’m a bit happy that I’ll be going back to school though. I didn’t really do much in the year I wasn’t in school.

It’s still haven’t gotten any sleep, still pondering the many things flowing in my brain, and I happened to think about work the last few weeks and I was reminded how stressful it is these days. Its becoming a real pain, way more the the usual working pains.

I feel extremely mistreated at the workplace. I do Safeway favors like come in extra hours or come in earlier, to take place of a coworker that called in sick or such; what do I get? I get criticism around every corner. Every mistake I make its like the end of the world to some people there. It’s not everyone, actually its not even the majority, but the fact that I work hard when the people criticising me are not around to see it. Another issue is that I am too nice or too soft a person, so its quite easy to take advantage of me. People can easily see that so that tend to use that against me and put it in their favor.  When things like that happen I tend to just let it go, thinking it will just pass, It never really does. I eventually get mad but never say anything, and then just stay that way.

I guess putting up with people like that is just one of the harshnesses of reality, the same I can never grasp as well as others. I made it this far though and have been through plenty of tests and trials previously; I’m quite sure I’ll survive this game of life even though I constantly doubt myself. Once again friends’ support is a key element in success, especially if they are good people.

Perhaps I can finally get some sleep, and hopefully wake up in time to get to work!

   What the hell am I doing its 2:53am and I have work in less than seven hours.

  My mind is like puddle with a thousand fish residing within it; don’t tell me thats impossible unless you’ve tried to fit more than 15 fish in a puddle. I’m just that kind of person who keeps a lot on my mind, everything that happens throughout the day and then some. Things of the past things of the present even things of the future all on the top of my thought process causing me to space out and whatnot.

  Many incidents I consider unfortunate mishaps or apocolyptic disasters are in fact in reality just small mistakes or happenings. I really wish I could wake up my pessimisticism to the real word, but I just can’t see that happening anytime soon; it’s become a bit of a bad habit more than a trait.

  I really wasn’t ready for this, real life that is. Then again not many people are. I’m sure I’ll come out ok since I have friends’ support, hell thats all I have really. Thanks everyone.

Well, today was a bit odd for work, because I started work at noon, and they asked me to stay till midnight; now thats a long time to be working, even with lunches and breaks, and I have to get up Sunday to work at 10 till 7!  But instead of getting overtime, they split it up into two 4 hour shifts, cheap...
The rain coming down is good, everything staring at me pushing the working in the rain with no coat wondering whats wrong with me, and of course easy car sliding, yahoo~!

So yeah its almost the end of my senior year, about 5 weeks left. Just the other day I was hit with the fact that there is a large chance I wont have all the credits needed to graduate. Now I'm scrambling all over doing make up work, thats getting late grades, just barely getting my grades needed up. I'm honestly very worried and a little scared that I wont make it. So just root for me, pray for me, whatever you do...because ill need it. I say about a 50% chance of not graduating right now. X_X

Finally after a long wait, NorCal drifting is alive again...on a track!! (keep it on the track kids!) anyway it was quite a long day last Saturday and Sunday (03-10-07)-(3-11-07) Just getting the stupid car on the trailer was bad enough, after enough thinking we decided to back into our neighbors driveway which made it wa~y easier to get it on. Then we had to load up the tires tools and other misc. supplies needed. After making sure we had everything, I tried to go to sleep; knowing that I would have to get up and leave around 6 so I can get to Altamont Motorsports Park at 7! (about a 40min. drive) So the next day (sunday 11th) I got up at 5 anyway groggy like no other, grabbed my helmet and gloves and eat some breakfast. We then left at 6 just as I estimated and were there at about 7. Once we got there, getting the car off the trailer was just was hard getting it on; my dad was really irritated with the stupid thing. Then I setup the car, went to the tech inspection/drivers meeting. And it was drift heaven for 5 hours...of course I took breaks so my car wouldnt die on me. I really learned alot from the practice and hope I will do better next time, not as good as most of the better guys, but I did well on a personal level. I really am anticipating the next one (may 20)

Here are some pics of me from various sources:

Today started out like another other weekend getting up late, should be going to church but blowing it off as usual (I do enjoy it sometimes). But today I decided to go out and waste some more money that I should be saving for car parts and such. I went over to best buy and purchased the entire Sakura Wars Box Set and Azumanga Daioh Box Set (I like the opening of Sakura Wars weee) I like both anime Sakura Wars is a little old though, but whatever; As for Azumanga its just pointless 4-koma comedy, animated. Then I came home cleaned my room and sat and did nothing (sad really) till it was time to go to work. Of course then I was at work 4 hours, but what a grueling 4 hours it was. It was so bad that at times I sneaked into the bathroom and played my psp (SHH!). Anyway after work I came home only to find out that I would be having KFC for dinner (I starting to annoy fast food!) And that was pretty much my day...I wish a was slightly more productive...whatever...