-=Aaron=-

I moved my blogging elsewhere, because not only is this blog inactive, but its also emo as @$%&. hahaha.

You can find my new blog here

It offers a lot of good stuff, aside from my general life. I hope it gets bigger in the future; I'll make it happen.

I used to look up to Kenshin Himura, in my younger days, not because he was a cool guy with a sword, but the values he carried with him. I then realized that most of the Samurai during that time had nearly the same amount of values that the animated character had. I then looked up to a greater man Ieyasu Tokugawa, a real figure and am important one during the Edo period of Japan. Not everything Ieyasu did was great, but the majority of his decisions, acts, and his personality I look up too even today. People often wonder why I am so "nice" or act with such compassion, even though I can be pretty mean on a bad day (not everyone is perfect!). The reason I act that way is events from the days of middle school to the present has molded me into the person I am. Having that historical figure to look up too has also helped greatly, in everything I do. I also decided to train myself with a sword as well for various reasons. I've been teaching myself the proper way through some videos and books since the closest dojo is in SF. I really started getting serious just this year, I have been getting really good at the basic strike or "Men" , and now have moved myself on to the "Kote-do" but still practice the basic strike daily as well as other basic workouts. Not many people knew, others did; now everyone should know. The training has improved many sides of me that were very weak and still in development, like my courage, physical strength, and even my mind. I hope I can one day get training from a real sensei, someday soon I hope; I feel like I'm disgracing all who follow the discipline especially with my Shinai (bamboo training sword) in such a horrid shape.

    So I'm a big fan of driving the mountain roads (touge) around here; its a fun hobby, but no really the wisest. Last night I was smart enough to visit a road over by Berekly, as soon as we started the run I was pulled over for a little speeding, I had no paper work on me at all. In most cases you would lose your car, and since my family has no money to rescue it from impound it would be gone forever. But I feel God gave me a huge break last night, In order to show me that this isnt the right way to go. I've been in near accidents driving these type of road before, and I said to myself God trying to tell me something, but I kept doing it anyway. I see that if I keep doing this form of street racing. I could end up dead, or have no car, or seriously injured. I would rather spend a 100 dollars on a day on the track then gamble with the above listed.

  So thats that, I'm retired from "touge" I might go out for a run here and there, but as for my whole plan that I had, its in the trash. I'm just being smart about my life thats all.

  So I'm not that pissed about work anymore, it tends to be and off and on type thing with me, usually due to a string of bad days followed by a good one.

  Christmas is looking pretty lean, we don't even have a tree up or decorations yet, I think its going to be a lot different this year; I hope my little brother can adjust to the difference. Its not like you need fancy lights and decorations or even gifts anyway, I’m sure we all know that by know anyway.

  Today I’ll finally be registering for school, after trying DVC then Heald, I finally compromised with my parents. I’ll have to pay for all the expenses so I hope I can save enough money to pay for everything. I’m a bit happy that I’ll be going back to school though. I didn’t really do much in the year I wasn’t in school.

It’s still haven’t gotten any sleep, still pondering the many things flowing in my brain, and I happened to think about work the last few weeks and I was reminded how stressful it is these days. Its becoming a real pain, way more the the usual working pains.

I feel extremely mistreated at the workplace. I do Safeway favors like come in extra hours or come in earlier, to take place of a coworker that called in sick or such; what do I get? I get criticism around every corner. Every mistake I make its like the end of the world to some people there. It’s not everyone, actually its not even the majority, but the fact that I work hard when the people criticising me are not around to see it. Another issue is that I am too nice or too soft a person, so its quite easy to take advantage of me. People can easily see that so that tend to use that against me and put it in their favor.  When things like that happen I tend to just let it go, thinking it will just pass, It never really does. I eventually get mad but never say anything, and then just stay that way.

I guess putting up with people like that is just one of the harshnesses of reality, the same I can never grasp as well as others. I made it this far though and have been through plenty of tests and trials previously; I’m quite sure I’ll survive this game of life even though I constantly doubt myself. Once again friends’ support is a key element in success, especially if they are good people.

Perhaps I can finally get some sleep, and hopefully wake up in time to get to work!

   What the hell am I doing its 2:53am and I have work in less than seven hours.

  My mind is like puddle with a thousand fish residing within it; don’t tell me thats impossible unless you’ve tried to fit more than 15 fish in a puddle. I’m just that kind of person who keeps a lot on my mind, everything that happens throughout the day and then some. Things of the past things of the present even things of the future all on the top of my thought process causing me to space out and whatnot.

  Many incidents I consider unfortunate mishaps or apocolyptic disasters are in fact in reality just small mistakes or happenings. I really wish I could wake up my pessimisticism to the real word, but I just can’t see that happening anytime soon; it’s become a bit of a bad habit more than a trait.

  I really wasn’t ready for this, real life that is. Then again not many people are. I’m sure I’ll come out ok since I have friends’ support, hell thats all I have really. Thanks everyone.

Well, today was a bit odd for work, because I started work at noon, and they asked me to stay till midnight; now thats a long time to be working, even with lunches and breaks, and I have to get up Sunday to work at 10 till 7!  But instead of getting overtime, they split it up into two 4 hour shifts, cheap...
The rain coming down is good, everything staring at me pushing the working in the rain with no coat wondering whats wrong with me, and of course easy car sliding, yahoo~!

So yeah its almost the end of my senior year, about 5 weeks left. Just the other day I was hit with the fact that there is a large chance I wont have all the credits needed to graduate. Now I'm scrambling all over doing make up work, thats getting late grades, just barely getting my grades needed up. I'm honestly very worried and a little scared that I wont make it. So just root for me, pray for me, whatever you do...because ill need it. I say about a 50% chance of not graduating right now. X_X

Finally after a long wait, NorCal drifting is alive again...on a track!! (keep it on the track kids!) anyway it was quite a long day last Saturday and Sunday (03-10-07)-(3-11-07) Just getting the stupid car on the trailer was bad enough, after enough thinking we decided to back into our neighbors driveway which made it wa~y easier to get it on. Then we had to load up the tires tools and other misc. supplies needed. After making sure we had everything, I tried to go to sleep; knowing that I would have to get up and leave around 6 so I can get to Altamont Motorsports Park at 7! (about a 40min. drive) So the next day (sunday 11th) I got up at 5 anyway groggy like no other, grabbed my helmet and gloves and eat some breakfast. We then left at 6 just as I estimated and were there at about 7. Once we got there, getting the car off the trailer was just was hard getting it on; my dad was really irritated with the stupid thing. Then I setup the car, went to the tech inspection/drivers meeting. And it was drift heaven for 5 hours...of course I took breaks so my car wouldnt die on me. I really learned alot from the practice and hope I will do better next time, not as good as most of the better guys, but I did well on a personal level. I really am anticipating the next one (may 20)

Here are some pics of me from various sources:

Today started out like another other weekend getting up late, should be going to church but blowing it off as usual (I do enjoy it sometimes). But today I decided to go out and waste some more money that I should be saving for car parts and such. I went over to best buy and purchased the entire Sakura Wars Box Set and Azumanga Daioh Box Set (I like the opening of Sakura Wars weee) I like both anime Sakura Wars is a little old though, but whatever; As for Azumanga its just pointless 4-koma comedy, animated. Then I came home cleaned my room and sat and did nothing (sad really) till it was time to go to work. Of course then I was at work 4 hours, but what a grueling 4 hours it was. It was so bad that at times I sneaked into the bathroom and played my psp (SHH!). Anyway after work I came home only to find out that I would be having KFC for dinner (I starting to annoy fast food!) And that was pretty much my day...I wish a was slightly more productive...whatever...

Well, today I went to school only to find out that there was a field trip that ended at 5...but wait a minute I work at 4....ah...so I ended up coming home early taking the usuall mountain road from Martinez to Crockett..expecting a normal run through the canyons...I stopped to take some pictures and then went a little further...stopped to take more pictures...only when I was finished my car would not start. Most people would consider that is the battery but the car turned on; just not the engine. I was worried that I might have damaged something driving quickly on the mountain pass, after worrying, pondering and calling my mom for a jump I came to my fuses I started and started pushing down on every one...one of them went down further then others! Which meant that as I was driving at one point where it was bumpy it must have came loose! Car started I was content and learned a valuable lesson...eh...always check you fuses?...I guess..lol Then I made my way home and doodled up some more SD characters (Ill post them up when I get to use the scanner)

Its been a long while since I actually tried to draw something usually just crappy SD doodles of stuff..but today after still having that Crisis Core video in my head, drew up Cloud when he was back in SOLDIER...I just kinda went of what I remember, the hair is more like his original FF VII hair, with a little Goku mixed in. His hair is supposed to be less spikey more like his Advent children hair...all well. And I give him a handgun, when he was in SOLDIER he used a rifle, no Buster Sword, not even Zack had the Buster Sword at the time. Anyway here it is...im still a n00b at drawing..more like rusty...whatever.

I am so happy to see this, its going to be so awsome...and informative!!!

Today, well I guess it was a change of pace. I'm quite used to working 8 hours on weekends, but today I only worked 4 which left me more time to enjoy the rest of the day. I went on a search for some more pants, but ended up not getting any. After that I went over to Tap-Ex and got myself a chocolate milk tea ^_^;

I really thought I had school tommorow until I was reminded that it was a holiday, so I feel really good now!!! And I owe it all to Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. w00t

I was bored so I put together a concept turks costume. I still need a few shinra related items on order now, and a black tie, which I just found. Anyway the idea is based of rufus' outfit design, with the more casual look to an uptight organization, im not actually cosplaying as reno, but the outfit itself will look similiar, and instead of that akwardly stupid stick reno uses I have equipped myself with a M92F handgun! w00t!

hrm, where to start...its been a while since ive been to a con...so long I cant even remember what one I went to last. Anyway it was good for me, my anime otaku self was slowly dying to a gamer and a car freak, but this resurected my love for anime once more (yay!). It was somewhat interesting, but it wasnt as big as I expected but it was a good time, I got some plush I was going to get over the net, but didnt feel like waiting, and stocked up on some snacks....
Well im anticipating WonderCon 2007. Im actually going to cosplay for the first time a hint is: "elena...your a turks!" (lol I always laughed at that)

heh, I really got to catch up on what has been going on the last few months, but I got to go to school, so..HAH!....eh but my mornings have been the same, wake up with my eyes bloodshot, because I was up all night talking to friends or playing some good 'ol FF. Then I go try to find something to eat, but nothing is to my liking, usually stuff down some ceral or a bagel. Then finally its out to my car, frozen solid in the mornings mist, so I basically wash my car just to get the frost off X_X; and of course its freezing outside T_T. Then finally im off to school usually stuck in traffic, espically on the way back (not fun with a stick) but whatever its just the beggingin of what makes my life so interesting!!

For some time now...I have been feeling weird...the state of the world we live in today makes me want to hide in my covers and go off to some dream world, never to return...But I am in no mood to die off and go to heaven just yet...even though its perfect...im afraid of death...I know im going to heaven...but...its just frightening, death...I believe in a God, and that he speaks to us...I feel him tell me im going to live a long happy life, yet I keep having dreams, more like, nightmares..here and there...I guess its normal. Then I really think...the homeless, the diseased, the unrighteous...all have it worse...and im acting like im the worst, It's those times when I see others worse I can actually wake up and..well...smell the cofee...I'm healthy, I have a job, a car, a home...not emo, just have been in some deep thought really, could the end of the world, ragnarok, the apoclpyse...whatever you want to call it, be upon us? I doubt it...WWII was far worse...but you never know...Guess its time to just live life out the best I can and not worry about much, its quite hard just to ingore what is going on though. I really need you..right now...

~Aaron

I bought a used PSP recently and was somewhat bummed to find out it was a later firmware 2.60+ and that it was probabally unhackable...but...

I just realized they made a downgrader for 2.71 !!!

So I updated my used psp from a 2.70 -> 2.71 -> 1.5 and the new DevHook kicks butt on so many levels

Currently Playing (for free):

VP Lenneth
Initial D Street Stage
Naruto Portable
Dragon Ball Portable
Samurai Warriors State of War
Gundam Battle Tactics

all fit onto a 1gig memory stick thanks to PSP Compressor!



Anyways...I have been having a fear of death lately...im just afraid to lose everything...I guess...I just hope I can live a happy life (dispite the fact that we are in World War III) and die later of old age...yeah...

2+2 = OMFGWTF

so fricken like...I don't know...

Anyways...I haven't posted in a while (too lazy) but now I am not I guess...
I got a job a safeway a few weeks ago, good money...yeps...I getting my funkey new little economy car...Honda Fit...sometime in the near future...eh...my summer has basically been work work work and sending barrages of bottled messages that never reach anywhere...Oh...I get my liscense next week (in hopes of passsing the test) So thats cool...eh.....*insert brain fart sound here*...some good games are coming out like FFXII and VP Slimeria...that vincent game sucks...I beat it...la~me. All I have to look forward to now is a viscous school > work > school > work cycle...well, at least im getting paid ^_^-V